Life is always taking such unexpected twists and turns. Its kind of funny to see how many things have changed now from years or even a couple of months ago. Not only do the people in your life change, but your directions change, your perspectives change and you change as an individual. Some of us turn into the people we hate, while the rest of us hate the people we turn into. It’s strange. But it happens. I’ve left behind some people who I thought would be with me for a long time, I mean they still are here, but they don’t mean much to me anymore. Our times have happened and have been some of the best, but they’re over now and its okay to move forward, In fact its better, because trying to hold on to things that are fading can ultimately lead to destruction. Experience, realize and release. I used to always believe that I would never let myself trust anyone, which is still partially true. Partially because I am careful, but I’ve found the ones I can trust. I’ve learned to open up and let myself free. I changed, people change, and life does too. It’s strange, but somehow so true.
Close your eyes for a while
Let the thoughts sink in
Mile after mile
Let the feelings cave in
Analyze the people, the words, the day
The walks and talks; the things that they say
The pictures in your head
Floating from event to event
Staring at them through every angle
Figuring out what everything meant
Why everything happened, what were the intentions
Why are you thinking about things that werent mentioned
They were implied for a reason
Just so you get the message
Just so you get the clue, and just so you learn your lesson
Of what you did wrong, in other words, your mistakes
What people grieve over, call them regrets or bad takes
Why did I do this, why did I say that
Brush all those thoughts under a gray mat
Cus what was gonna happen, no one can change that
No matter how hard you try, you cant rearrange that
The events, forward or rewind, there’s no way to stop it
If its destiny and fate combined, no one can crop it
all the messed up situations, and the dirty piles of shit
You got stuck in when standing up, or even when you had to sit
To take a break, pause, and just take a deep breath
You want to relax but you cant, ‘where is my crystal meth?’
Woah stop, fuck all that, get a reality check mate
Your eyelids heavy, heads pounding, and your a fucking wreck mate
I know its dark out, but goddamn your thoughts are dark too
You’re blaming all of worlds mishaps, problems and wars on you
Give yourself a real break and cut yourself some real slack
Ease you mind, body, brain without the use of real crack
It’s all you can do, life doesn’t stop, it goes on
A letter from life says, hold on tight and come along..
Okay first of all, I am so happy first semester is done with! It was such a pain, & I barely survived through my courses. My marks were fine, not too happy about them but not sad either. When you try really hard and get okay results, there’s not much you can do about it.
So anyways, semester two started about a week and a half ago & compared to last semester it is a piece of cake, well so far it is. I don’t expect it to be too hard, but then again I shouldn’t expect anything at all because I always end up being surprised. This is my last semester in high school and I am very excited, but at the same time equally apprehensive about what the future has in store for me. I’ve applied to 3 different universities and for 5 programs in total and have been accepted to 2 of them so far. One is my first choice which I am so happy for. But since it was an early offer, I am scared that my average will drop and the offer will get taken away.
Ahhh OK enough of these talks, they make me nervous. But yes I am looking forward to graduating and leaving high school. As much as I will truly miss the teachers, school and the faces I have seen for the past 4 years, I think it is time to move forward in life. I don’t know if I’m ready or not, but I just want to get out of the small high school world and dive straight into the real world. I hope for a smooth dive, but realistically I see myself going in head first. Either way I think it is time to experience the world for myself now. It is time to leave a mark of my own. It is time.
I made this blog about a week ago *cue Bobby Shmurda* .. & I’ve already hit 100+ followers which is absolutely amazing! I can’t believe people actually read what I write. I started this blog not knowing exactly where I was headed with it, but I’m very happy with how it’s flourishing, especially in this short period of time. Thanks for all your comments and likes & for taking the time to appreciate my writings. Much love -Nim
Bullying.. Bring back any harsh memories? Or remind you of someone? Or even remind you of yourself?
This third week of the beautiful month of November is bullying awareness week. It is a time to reflect, & raise awareness on one of the most tragic things a person can experience or go through in their life.
Bullying can occur in many different forms, but that doesn’t lessen the quantity or depth of the scars that it leaves. It’s unfortunate to say that every single person has experienced bullying at least once in their lives. And it’s even more unfortunate to think that despite all this awareness, people are still being bullied to this day.
What I don’t understand is WHY? Why does someone feel the need to put another person down? Is it to make yourself feel better, or to try & heal any previous scars you’ve had from being bullied? No reason can EVER justify bullying. If you’re bullying someone as a joke.. It’s NOT a joke. You have no idea how much you can hurt someone with your words. And after you’ve said those cruel words, no matter how many times you apologize it’s already affected the person. In that very moment you’ve brought down their confidence, self-assurance & sense of worth that they’ve tried building up for years. All the courage and confidence they have tried to mount in themselves is now gone, & the reason behind that is YOU. Think before you speak, don’t speak and then reflect on what you’ve said. Stop being a bully, stand up to bullying, tell someone (you’re not being a ‘snitch’; you’re simply preventing yourself or someone else from breaking down).
Each & every one of you is beautiful, & each and every one of you has a very unique place in our world. You are all important & worth it, and don’t EVER let anyone tell you otherwise!
“Love for All, Hatred for None”
If I could sum up one of my life goals in 3 words it would be to ‘travel the world’. As cliché as that sounds it is actually one of my biggest dreams. I love to venture and most importantly I love the journey. What good is the destination without the eager and lingering journey? We all live in our hometown where we were most likely born, grew up and got educated, and where we continue to build our future. What we fail to realize is that this is just a small piece of this huge world we live in. There is so much out there for us to experience and be a part of. The world has so much more to offer. I’ve always wanted to experience cultures that are very different from mine, and see places that I’ve never seen before. I’ve been in Canada, more specifically Ontario all my life. It is wonderful here so I’m not complaining, but I’ve seen it all. I want to see new places. Everything is so beautiful to see in pictures, but imagine actually being inside that picture and being a part of it all. Imagine how breathtaking that would be.
Some places that I would be most excited to travel are (in order): Mecca, Saudi Arabia; Dubai, UAE; Sharm el-sheikh, Egypt; Cape Town, South Africa; Casablanca, Morocco; Barcelona, Spain; Salvador, Brazil; Mumbai, India; Seoul, Korea; Venice, Italy; Agra, India; Cancun, Mexico. These are just to name a few, because I have a very long list. Everyplace I listed is very unique to each other, and their culture, society, traditions, as well as the overall environment are very different from that of my own. The pictures of these places you can hold in your hand (or save on your computer via Google images), but the actual experience is one to embrace in your heart forever. It would be life changing to travel and see all these places, and touch all the wonders of the world that you see in the pictures with your own hands. It would just be astonishing & overwhelming. One day, just one day…
“If you can dream it, you can do it” – Walt Disney