Tag Archives: love

Experience, realize and release

Life is always taking such unexpected twists and turns. Its kind of funny to see how many things have changed now from years or even a couple of months ago. Not only do the people in your life change, but your directions change, your perspectives change and you change as an individual. Some of us turn into the people we hate, while the rest of us hate the people we turn into. It’s strange. But it happens. I’ve left behind some people who I thought would be with me for a long time, I mean they still are here, but they don’t mean much to me anymore. Our times have happened and have been some of the best, but they’re over now and its okay to move forward, In fact its better, because trying to hold on to things that are fading can ultimately lead to destruction. Experience, realize and release. I used to always believe that I would never let myself trust anyone, which is still partially true. Partially because I am careful, but I’ve found the ones I can trust. I’ve learned to open up and let myself free. I changed, people change, and life does too. It’s strange, but somehow so true.

Advertisements

A shield from the pits; A trail towards the top ❥

Your presence completes me

Your voice softens my own

When you’re not here I feel so alone

It’s the way you speak to me

How very evident is your love

Like a secure gift sent from above

It’s so clear in the way

You tell me you’re going to stay

A shield from the pits

A trail towards the top

With intentions so pure

You’re so content

So sure

That in my worst days

You become my best cure

You see right through me

Right through me you see

You know me inside out

Inside out you know me

I repeat

And repeat

Yet you listen to every beat

Oh

I wonder, everyday

When will we finally meet?

Summer’s a comin’ ♥

Am I the only one overly excited for summer? The thought of the sun out all day, seeing the greenest grass we see all year, and the overall warm weather makes me so happy. I mean apart from the bugs, bees and all that good stuff, I cannot be more thrilled for summer. I just want to be able to go out without the worry of it raining, snowing.. hailing. Or even just stay home, with windows open, fresh summer breeze, watching movies all day or just sleeping. I actually really want to travel this summer, even if it is just for a couple days. It doesn’t have to be anywhere far; I just want to get away from my usual routine. I want to leave the city, area, people and go to a place where I don’t know anything or anyone. I want to escape for a bit before I have to go back and continue the same routine again, you get me?

Another reason for spending the summer well is that I will be graduating high school in June and will start university in September; well I mean that’s the plan. With all this comes a large mix of emotions, excitement, nerves and all that. So why not shake it all off and have a little fun in between?

Take Me Back to Where I Belong.

When simple things brought me the most joy

When the hardest choice was the easiest to make

When colorful things were my sorrows cure

When the reasons for my actions were the most pure

The age of innocence.. where has it gone?

Take me back to where I belong

When happiness was in early morning cartoons

When staying up past 10 gave me the most thrill

When running around on the streets was great fun

When jumping high off the swings gave me freedom

The age of innocence.. where has it gone?

Take me back to where I belong

When I would look forward to recess at school

When ice cream and sprinkles made me smile

When shapes of the clouds were my main concern

When excitement was actually in wanting to learn

The age of innocence.. where has it gone?

Take me back to where I belong

When my dreams and desires were stronger than life

When creativity would flow out of my soul

When I’d speak my mind without thinking twice

When my heart wasn’t close to the coldness of ice

The age of innocence.. where has it gone?

Take me back to where I belong

It’s but a lustrous memory.

It’s but a lustrous memory

Paper crisp but water thin

Lightly wisping through our minds

Day by day

Every moment seems precious again

The sound’s so clean

Every word is an adjective

As it leaves the mouth

It touches you like cotton

So soft

So pure

Hits your soul & cuts right through

Dangerously innocent

It seems like nothing

But to you it’s everything

..To you they’re everything

The thoughts twinkle

Memory so fresh

As the wind dances freely

As if it is the present

Not past

The way the face reappears

Blurry but sharp

Paper crisp but water thin

It’s but a lustrous memory

Identity Crisis?

We all have them at one point or even multiple points in our lives. Trying to figure out who we are and what we’re trying to do. It’s a part of growing up. But one thing I need to say is that having an identity crisis’ due to not fitting in can happen, but is needless.

You shouldn’t need to think about changing yourself to fit in. Nonetheless, changing where you’re trying to fit in, to a place where you don’t even need to try is something more sensible. Every single person on our earth is special in their own way. No person should ever feel the need to change themselves in order to fit in. You should never feel the need to change yourself for the satisfaction of those around you. YOU are YOURSELF for YOU and NOONE else. As insanely cheesy as that sounds, I follow by this line. You are created in a very special way, and that shouldn’t need to change in any point of your life. If someone doesn’t like your interests, hobbies, personality, look, your quirkiness or your jokes, that’s unfortunate for them. But you should not have to do anything about it. Be yourself always. Be what makes you happy. If you are happy, I guarantee that the people around you, that matter, will be happy too.

In my years of high school, I have never felt like I needed to change myself to please others and I am very fortunate to say that. However, I have witnessed peers and ex-friends who have completely changed themselves for the sake of fitting in. I have seen them changing their looks, attitude and overall personality in order to make friends or be a part of a group of friends. I despise seeing people do this to themselves. Pressure and social influence play a major role in all of this. People who are changing like this fail to realize that they are not doing this for themselves but for the people around them. You can never satisfy everyone, and you have to realize that. You should only focus on making yourself as well as the people close to you happy. Don’t fall into this role confusion, trying to change you for others. I promise that someone somewhere would be very happy to become friends with the original you, for exactly who you are.

Is it time?

Okay first of all, I am so happy first semester is done with! It was such a pain, & I barely survived through my courses. My marks were fine, not too happy about them but not sad either. When you try really hard and get okay results, there’s not much you can do about it.

So anyways, semester two started about a week and a half ago & compared to last semester it is a piece of cake, well so far it is. I don’t expect it to be too hard, but then again I shouldn’t expect anything at all because I always end up being surprised. This is my last semester in high school and I am very excited, but at the same time equally apprehensive about what the future has in store for me. I’ve applied to 3 different universities and for 5 programs in total and have been accepted to 2 of them so far. One is my first choice which I am so happy for. But since it was an early offer, I am scared that my average will drop and the offer will get taken away.

Ahhh OK enough of these talks, they make me nervous. But yes I am looking forward to graduating and leaving high school. As much as I will truly miss the teachers, school and the faces I have seen for the past 4 years, I think it is time to move forward in life. I don’t know if I’m ready or not, but I just want to get out of the small high school world and dive straight into the real world. I hope for a smooth dive, but realistically I see myself going in head first. Either way I think it is time to experience the world for myself now. It is time to leave a mark of my own. It is time.