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Experience, realize and release

Life is always taking such unexpected twists and turns. Its kind of funny to see how many things have changed now from years or even a couple of months ago. Not only do the people in your life change, but your directions change, your perspectives change and you change as an individual. Some of us turn into the people we hate, while the rest of us hate the people we turn into. It’s strange. But it happens. I’ve left behind some people who I thought would be with me for a long time, I mean they still are here, but they don’t mean much to me anymore. Our times have happened and have been some of the best, but they’re over now and its okay to move forward, In fact its better, because trying to hold on to things that are fading can ultimately lead to destruction. Experience, realize and release. I used to always believe that I would never let myself trust anyone, which is still partially true. Partially because I am careful, but I’ve found the ones I can trust. I’ve learned to open up and let myself free. I changed, people change, and life does too. It’s strange, but somehow so true.

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Frenemies.

You know your friends that are with you & surely commit

The ones who have always had your back with every hit

They know your whole life from beginning to end

Yet they be the ones to leave before you reach the end

Just when you think you can trust them with your whole life

Like what a husband does with his beloved wife

They take your precious secrets and all that you’ve shared

Cus you thought they would be the ones to listen and care

But instead everything twisted, all the stories got out

The ones they had sworn would never leave their mouths

And now they’re sitting together, laughing & joking

And you’re in your bedroom corner, dying & choking

And you finally realize you believed the wrong people

They were never your friends; they’re all fake and evil

But now it’s no use, they know everything about you

They’ll expose your every move & always try to outdo..

Everything you try to accomplish in life, forgetting the past

What these enemies did to your first and to your last

But then everything is either a blessing in disguise

Or just another one of life’s lessons for the wise

For me it’s a lesson that’ll guide me through every season

Cus everything that happens in life happens for a reason

So these friends that you have, they’re only temporary

The ones forever will be there at your cemetery

Now listen warily to what I say, place close attention

This genuine advice is for your own prevention

To lastingly reduce the risk of getting deceived

Keep your mouth closed, ears open – knowledge retrieved

And remember that no one’s on your side forever

Feelings change, attitudes differ, so you should never..

Give all your trust to someone that you think you know

Because those people will surprise you once things start to grow

Is it time?

Okay first of all, I am so happy first semester is done with! It was such a pain, & I barely survived through my courses. My marks were fine, not too happy about them but not sad either. When you try really hard and get okay results, there’s not much you can do about it.

So anyways, semester two started about a week and a half ago & compared to last semester it is a piece of cake, well so far it is. I don’t expect it to be too hard, but then again I shouldn’t expect anything at all because I always end up being surprised. This is my last semester in high school and I am very excited, but at the same time equally apprehensive about what the future has in store for me. I’ve applied to 3 different universities and for 5 programs in total and have been accepted to 2 of them so far. One is my first choice which I am so happy for. But since it was an early offer, I am scared that my average will drop and the offer will get taken away.

Ahhh OK enough of these talks, they make me nervous. But yes I am looking forward to graduating and leaving high school. As much as I will truly miss the teachers, school and the faces I have seen for the past 4 years, I think it is time to move forward in life. I don’t know if I’m ready or not, but I just want to get out of the small high school world and dive straight into the real world. I hope for a smooth dive, but realistically I see myself going in head first. Either way I think it is time to experience the world for myself now. It is time to leave a mark of my own. It is time.

Bullying Awareness Week

Bullying.. Bring back any harsh memories? Or remind you of someone? Or even remind you of yourself?

This third week of the beautiful month of November is bullying awareness week. It is a time to reflect, & raise awareness on one of the most tragic things a person can experience or go through in their life.

Bullying can occur in many different forms, but that doesn’t lessen the quantity or depth of the scars that it leaves. It’s unfortunate to say that every single person has experienced bullying at least once in their lives. And it’s even more unfortunate to think that despite all this awareness, people are still being bullied to this day.

What I don’t understand is WHY? Why does someone feel the need to put another person down? Is it to make yourself feel better, or to try & heal any previous scars you’ve had from being bullied? No reason can EVER justify bullying. If you’re bullying someone as a joke.. It’s NOT a joke. You have no idea how much you can hurt someone with your words. And after you’ve said those cruel words, no matter how many times you apologize it’s already affected the person. In that very moment you’ve brought down their confidence, self-assurance & sense of worth that they’ve tried building up for years. All the courage and confidence they have tried to mount in themselves is now gone, & the reason behind that is YOU. Think before you speak, don’t speak and then reflect on what you’ve said. Stop being a bully, stand up to bullying, tell someone (you’re not being a ‘snitch’; you’re simply preventing yourself or someone else from breaking down).

Each & every one of you is beautiful, & each and every one of you has a very unique place in our world. You are all important & worth it, and don’t EVER let anyone tell you otherwise! FullSizeRender (2)

“Love for All, Hatred for None”

 

Just Like the Weather

One day you’re talking, some texts here and there

The next you’re great friends, you’ve got so much to share

The talks get longer and meaning shines through

All seems bright again; look the sun is out too

As days go by, the connection gets stronger

The phone calls come frequently & this time they’re longer

You think about your convo’s and burst out in laughter

It’s a wonderful feeling; you save the texts to read after

Then one day you wake up & things become blurry

The texts get shorter and they’re always in a hurry

You don’t see them anymore, the clouds so grey 

& then you realize that they’re drifting away

Leaving you behind & all the memories so stale

No care, no love, no heart – exhale

All you hear is thunder, all you see is lightning

Everything changed so fast; it’s scary, it’s frightening

But things don’t change darling, it’s the people who do

They walk away, break the bond & slowly forget you

You need to realize darling, no one’s here forever

These are temporary ties; they’re just like the weather

Look outside right now, do you see the rain fall?

Like those drops, don’t hold back & just let it all out..

Let it all out & start fresh but remember

People change fast, just like the weather